Home Alone

I am Home Alone tonight. Brandee is off getting some sleep testing done.

The house is quiet and my mind wanders.

I like being left alone, but not left alone all by myself. Even if Brandee is in the next room, down the hall, or out on the porch, it is comforting to know she is here.

I wonder if being dead is lonely? Is God with you when your dead? If so, do you know it? Or is being dead like being in a very deep sleep? I find sleep boring. Necessary, yes. Fun, no.

Have you ever been truly alone? No interaction with any creature for more than a day? I have. Spent three days in my own home with only a computer (pre-modem days), the fridge and telly to keep me company. My choice. Wasn't too bad. I got a lot of stuff done (and by "stuff" I mean playing computer games).

Re: My statement above about Brandee being home. I find it interesting that having the cats here does not alleviate my "being alone by myself" state. I thought that it would. I am sure it does for some people. Perhaps the cat's indifference to my presence is a factor. "Oh, wait until you are hungry little kitties; then we will see who needs who."

My father died 13 years ago. He was a fairly private person who liked people. Dad would hang out at the local donut shop, sipping coffe,smoking and talking religion with whomever cared to participate. He was a smart man and a deep thinker although you wouldn't guess that about him based on his appearance.

I hope there is a coffee shop in Heaven. Its no fun being alone by yourself.